linnie

No, I can't give details!

2005-04-14T02:35:46Z

My life is more scandalous than a soap opera.

Formal dinner parties and term papers...

2005-04-03T04:52:16Z

The rough draft of my term paper is due on Tuesday. I've decided to rewrite all my notecards. Since, I'm a perfectionist like that. Sick, isn't it? Yeah, but I'm actually nervous about my term paper. I know it's going to be good, but I'm not sure if my teacher will agree with me that it's good? I need a good grade on my term paper. If I don't get one, that'll make me sad. Yeah, I'm going all perfectionist in the fourth marking period.

I can't wait for spring break! I already have some awesome plans. Of course, I'm going back to Sound Garden on the 24th. Then, I'm also having a little party. Seven of my closet girl friends for a formal sit down dinner and some fun. I have never really thrown a formal party. So, it'll be fun. We'll all get dressed up and eat delicious food. Planning it is going to be so much fun. I love doing things like this!

I'm kind of amazed by myself. Usually, I like atleast one guy. Right now, I don't. I'm not even thinking of hooking up with any guys. I'm kind of content with being with myself. Of course, a boyfriend would be nice... but I can't even handle one. Why should I have a boyfriend if I'm just going to fuck it up? Exactly. I shouldn't.

I got my digital! It's very exciting. So, expect some picture updates soon. Haha.

Lucky #10

2005-03-30T04:54:05Z

Wow, Sound Garden was fucking crazy. It was the first club I went to and amazing. A lot of people say it's small compared to Abyss and I guess it kind of is small. But I kind of liked that, 600 people compared to 250 people. For my first club, it was amazing. We might be going to Goodtymes this Friday. If we don't, ice skating or something like that! Girls night, totally.

Today, we had a substitute for History. We had to write a paper on what time era we'd want to go back to if we had a time machine. I chose medieval England. You can only imagine what I chose to be. A princess, of course! Duh... what else would I be? Hah, my paper truthfully sounded like a three year old wrote it. But what can I say, old dreams die hard? And I do truthfully want to ride horses and go to royal balls. Hah, royal balls.

Oh, and let's just say Lucky #7 jumped all the way to Lucky # 10. You might have no idea what I'm talking about. And that's kind of hot. ;*

And it's really kind of random.

2005-03-23T03:49:33Z

Wow, I actually haven't had that much drama this week in my life. What the fuck? That isn't normal. But whatever, it's actually a good thing. Hmm, but I do love the drama. Hehe, I missed Gotti's yesterday and I have to tape The OC on Thursday. I have to stop rambling. Eep! I got new Blue Cult jeans. They're so hot... Okay, now more onto focused topics.

Tommorow, I'm going to be my sister's model. Which is going to be cool. Well, that's if she doesn't haev a hair cut. If she does have a hair cut, I'm not going to be her model. Because, I'm growing out my hair again. I love it, sometimes it's short and sometime's it's long. Sometime's it's dark and sometime's it's light. Kind of like guys, I just can't keep one of them... have to keep changing!

And maybe that's my problem, but whatever. On Thursday I'm going to Sound Garden! They have a Teen Night and I think it's going to be pretty hot. If it's not, then whatever. It's not like I'd be doing anything better on a Thursday night. I'm not sure who's coming yet, but I know a lot of people from my school are going. I don't like that too much. Because I like being crazy out of school and then people that I don't hang out with school thinking I'm this nice girl. Hah, right.

I have such a headache, today there was a "lock down" in school. Basically, you're supposed to close the windows, the lights, the door, and the whole class is supposed to go to the side. So, no one can see them when they look in the door. Hah, my teacher didn't even follow it. He shut the door and kept teaching. Whatever, I got to finish my homework... So, it's okay. And I didn't get caught without my ID... no suspension for me!

I have a feeling this weekend is going to be so hot, I can't wait!

I could've been at Nationals!

2005-03-19T22:25:01Z

So, if I was still in dance class I would be at Nationals right now. And let me tell you, Nationals are very exciting. You go to Washington, with all your buddy's in dance class (and some who aren't your buddies). You compete and win awards (or lose). Am I sad that I missed out? Not exactly sad, but not exactly happy. Actually, I'm kind of relieved. If I would've gone I probably would've gotten into a fight with one of the girls on the team. But lets not talk about that!

Instead, I'm here writing this entry! Yeah, I went shopping today. I shop too much, it's addictive. But whatever. When I shop, I'm happy. Lately, me being happy is very rare. So, I take my happy moments whenever I can. I didn't get a lot, but that's okay. BCBG sweats and Blue Cult jeans. Yeah, It's like every week is a new pair of designer jeans. That makes me especially happy. I need to get them hemmed though. Hm, which ones should I wear on Thursday.

Yes, so I get half day on Thursday and off on Friday. Because of this wonderful holiday called Easter. Thursday my friends and I are going to Sound Garden. Since, whenever we have Friday's off most teen clubs around here give us a night. Sound Garden's bound to be hot. I need to find a hot boy (for the night or for long term, whatever.) Anyways, this is turning out to be a very useless entry. But whatever, today seems like a useless kind of day.

I have to finish my term paper index cards ;( Bullshit.

The list.

2005-03-15T05:54:49Z

So, I've been thinking of making a list. As per suggestion of one of my friends, of the guys I've gone out with/seriously hooked up with after July. I did and this is what I came up with. I'm not going to put names, because I want this to be public

BOY #1

He's an All American boy, he plays baseball and is very cute. That is basically what a lot of girls are looking for in a guy. But for me, he reminded me too much of my ex boyfriend. That's bad, when you're trying to get over your ex.

BOY #2

He's a very cute boy and very nice... for a summer hook up. But the truth is? Nice is as far as it went. He was borderline obsessive and still is to this day. That makes me yawn.

BOY #3

Two words, fucking disgusting.

BOY #4

He liked me, a lot and probably a little too much. Though, the way he liked me kind of scared me. I guess, it was a little stalkerish. After we broke up he still wanted me. Yeah, that's pathetic.

BOY #5

He was hooking up with another girl, enough said.

BOY #6

He was nice and cute, but god he was such a bad kisser. It was like a lizard sticking his tongue in and out of my mouth, I almost choked on it.

Maybe my problem? Is the fact that I'm going out with guys 16 and under, only lizard kisser was older. Maybe I need an older guy? Yes.

Confessions of an insomniac.

2005-03-14T06:28:09Z

I'm an insomniac and it's not even funny. I would be asleep, if I wasn't doing things I shouldn't be doing. I would elaborate, but since this is a public entry... definitely not! If you want to know the gist, IM me. But I highly doubt you do.

So, it's February and we're already in the 3rd marking period of the school year. First two marking periods, I did okay. Better in the first than the second. I need to get more involved with school though. So, that's what I'm doing. I'm even joining a sport and I'm pretty active on student council. I help out at school store and go to most of the meetings.

I'm joining tennis this fall. I've never done it before, but I'm sure I'll do it okay. I've never joined anything and really sucked at it. Even though I kind of suck at volleyball, but whatever I don't even try in gym... It's gonna be a lot of fun. I'll make some new friends and interact with some old ones! I'm thinking of getting lessons. Even though they're crazy expensive. Whatever, I need to start making my own money.

I think I'm going to call this pizza place in Edgewater that I saw had a HELP WANTED sign up. Yeah, I'll need my dad and sister to drive me to work all the time. But whatever, I really want a job. Haha, I can't wait to work! I hope they hire me as a 15 year old though... most people around here don't.

What time are you starting this? 1:00AM
Name? Linda
Nicknames? Lin, Linnie, Lucky, and Baby
Date of birth? June 22
Sex? Female
Height? I actually have no idea. Like, 5'6 or 5'7.
Eye color? Hazel.
Where were you born? A hospital.
Hair color? Brown with blond highlights.
Town you live in? Cliffside Park.
Favorite foods? Uhm, grilled cheese with tomatoes or ceaser salad.
Been in a car accident? No.
Favorite day of the week? Friday.

Favorite restaurant? Uhm, Houston's for their salad and atmosphere. Boumgart's for their atmosphere and sesame chicken. Stony Hill Inn, cause I practically grew up there. And my soon to be favorite restaurant? The one my mom's going to open!
Favorite sport to watch? Sometimes I watch tennis or swimming. But that's it really.
Favorite ice cream flavor? Uhm, I don't like ice cream. Lemon sorbet, that's it.
Favorite fast food restuarant? Wendy's or McDonalds.
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Uhm, Lacoste... or maybe Marciano...
Favorite TV show? The OC!
Been out of country? Many times.
What are you listening to right now? Nothing.
Do you have a crush on someone? I don't think you'd call it a crush.
Do you have a bf/gf? No.
Are you a virgin? No.
Do you smoke? No.
Are you ghetto? Hah, no.
What are your favorite colors? Hot pink and Orange.
Who do you talk to most on the phone? Bianca.
Have you ever been slapped? Yeah.
Do you get online a lot? Sometimes yes, sometimes no.
Are you shy or outgoing? I can be shy sometimes, but I'm outgoing more times.
Do you have a social life? Yes.
How easily do you trust people? Not easily at all.
Would you ever sky dive? Yeah.
Have you ever been out of state? Hah, yeah.
Do you like to travel? I love it.
Do you want to get out of your hometown? Yes.
Do you drink a lot of water? Yep.
Do you have a cell phone? Of course.
Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point? No.
What do you want pierced? Nothing.
Do you like takin pictures? Yeah.
Do you have a tan? Not right now.
Do you get annoyed easily? Sometimes.
Do you have any siblings? Yeah.
Have you ever been played? No.
How do you vent your anger? I either hide it inside myself or talk to a select group of friends about it.
Do you even have a job? No.
What do you want a tattoo of? I don't want a tatoo.
What does your ex bf/gf look like? Which one?
Whats her/his name? Which one?
Have you ever been bitched out? Yeah, it was funny.
Do you like getting dirty? It's fun.
What is your heritage? Croatian and Cuban.
What is your lucky number? Uhm, 3... I guess?
What does your hair look like right now? Kind of messy, straight.
Describe your looks? I'm tall and skinny. I have hazel eyes that change color and brownish blond hair a little longer than my shoulder. Yeah, I don't know what else.
If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color? Been there, done that.
Would you ever date someone younger than you? No.
Would you ever date someone older than you? I have.
How many rings until you answer the phone? I don't count.
Have you ever been skinny dipping? No.
If yes, when was the last time?
When was the last time you went on a date? Hm, not sure.
Do you look more like your mother or father? Father.
Do you cry a lot? Uhm, I can be a cry baby sometimes.
Do you ever wear shirts do show your belly? Hah, yes.
What about cleavage? Sometimes.
Is your best friend a virgin? Yes.
What theme does your room have? It used to be stars, but now... I don't know. It's more of a 'color' theme... the colors? Light yellow, green, and blue mixed with some dark blue.
What size show do you wear? 7 1/2
What is your screen name on AIM? BaBY L 022
Have you ever given a lapdance? Haha, yes.
Have you ever recieved one? Uhm, no.
Has there ever been a rumor spread about you? Yeah.
What is one of your bad qualilties? I don't know, why don't you tell me?
Would you marry for money? I don't think I would...
When was the last time you cried in school? Hm, a few months ago.
What kind of music do you like? A lot of music.
Would you ever bungee jump? Sure, but it'd have to be safe.
What is your worst fear? I don't know.
Would you ever join the army? No.
Do you like cows? Not especially.
If you were to die today, what would you do? Tell him I love him and that's never changed.
If you had one last word to say to someone before you die, what would it be? Depends on the person.
Moons or stars? Stars.
Coke or pepsi? Doesn't matter, but I do love the lemon flavored coke.
What time are you finishing this? 1:23.

Lucky #7?

2005-03-07T16:21:42Z

So, I guess I quit things with two guys... because I kind of noticed I was wasting my time on both of them. One, was hooking up with another girl and another was just a plain crackhead. I once again used guys just to waste some time and that kind of sucks. Whatever, on to Lucky #7. Haha, right ... Lucky.

Oh, I'm getting a puppy! A cute little maltese. Yay!

I AM: confused.
I THINK: about things i shouldn't.
I KNOW: a lot.
I WANT: him.
I HAVE: a cell phone in my hand.
I WISH: i was happy.
I HATE: her.
I FEAR: not too much.
I HEAR: techno.
I SEARCH: for answers.
I WONDER: why i waste my time thinking of things i know i shouldn't.
I REGRET: lying like i used to.
I LOVE: my friends and my family.
I ALWAYS: obsessively brush my teeth, a lot of times a day.
I AM NOT: repulsive.
I DANCE: on my bed.
I SING: a lot.
I CRY: for stupid reasons.
I DO NOT ALWAYS: think before i talk.
I FIGHT: with my parents.
I WIN: scratch offs.
I LOSE: everything, easily.
I CONFUSE: myself.

It kind of sucks, but...

2005-03-04T05:31:21Z

Every guy is just another mistake.

It was like walking on air!

2005-02-23T21:15:12Z

Okay, so the break has been going pretty good. Nothing groundbreakingly exciting or anything. But whatever. I've been doing my term paper stuff and my biology project. Yep, I'm getting on top of my school work before it's due. Which is weird, because usually I procrastinate. But that's okay!

Today, I woke up at like 1230 and went on the treadmill for an hour. It gets boring, I just listened to my Ipod and walked. Oh wow. I didn't do a cool down when I got off and I felt like I was walking on like air... 'cause when you walk fast and then you walk normal! Yeah, it was funny. All else I did today was take a shower.

I don't know if I should go to Croatia, because I think we're staying till September 5th. It'd be okay if my school started on like the 6th or 7th. But I think we're starting early again, the 1st. And I kind of don't like how I'm going to miss school. I know, that sounds kind of nerdy. But like seating wise and stuff, if I don't pick my own it's gonna suck! You know? I have to figure it out this week.

I want a digital camera so badly! I lost my old one... And I want a new webcam too. 'Cause mine is good, but it's grainy sometimes and like the stand is missing. I need to get a job, because if I listed all the things I wanted it'd be kind of sad.

Praise to the Ramen noodles!

2005-02-18T03:49:03Z

Ramen noodles are amazing. They're the easiest thing to make and cost virtually nothing. Yeah, and they're delicious. Oriental flavor is amazing (blue package). But maybe I just feel that way because I was starving?

So, nothing really has been happening in my life. The drama bit is over and I made a lot of it stop for myself. Even though I didn't start it in the first place. But whatever, it's over... At least, I think it's over. Though, some people probably don't feel that way. But guess what? I don't really care what people think. Especially people who I don't interact with and I don't care about.

Tommorow I'm going to the movies. Gasp, Bianca's mom is letting her off of punishment for a day. It's going to be fun and break is next week. Which is something that's totally amazing. But kind of gay also, because a lot of people are going away and guess where I'm staying. Sucks for me, but I'll probably find something to do. Maybe my Aunt will bring me up to the Poconos?

I need to go shopping this weekend and get 2 Vera Bradley bags. I need one for school and another just to hold my stuff, when I go out. I have purses, but I don't really like something. I'm also getting annoyed at holdings my books at school. So... better go get it this weekend.

I want to start working out next week. I mean, I have like a mini gym in my basement. Now, I just have to use it! ;* Hope everyone has a good weekend!

RANDOM!
~I downloaded the cutest skin for Winamp. It's Monsters Inc and fucking fantabulous.
~I'm actually doing better in Bio this marking period, amazing.
~I got a 99 on my Math Strategies test, I don't get grades like that in math usually!
~Term paper has gotten under way, our first due date was today. Yep, I gave in my work.

A new start?

2005-02-14T04:51:46Z

Oops, I started a Livejournal again.